It’s been a long time since I enlisted; since I posted on this blog. If I were to trace my life through BMT, Service Term and Pro Term, I would need hours to note down the ups and downs of what I’ve been through. There was so much to endure, so much to look forward to, so much to learn. And now, closure is eminent. In less than a month, I will be stepping across the boundary from a life of tough training to one of responsibility and realism. It is time.
As I come closer to crossing the line and getting my chocolate bar, I increasingly feel a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction at having survived and emerging a stronger person. And yet, at the same time, I have come to the realisation of how much I have sacrificed in this arduous pursuit. I feel that I’ve drifted further away from God. The lack of personal time as well as the long overseas trips translated into less (if any at all) time for prayer and reflection. Also, I’ve spent less time with my family and friends. Short book-outs and exhausting training meant that I rested most of my weekends away, apart from the movies and meals with them.
I look forward to life after commissioning. I cannot wait to enter unit life and continue my learning process. The learning curve will be steep, but it will be fulfilling and fun. I anticipate more freedom to spend time with God, my family and friends.
I’ll have to start replacing what I’ve lost.
